Notes from the Revolution

Dear Andrew,

There is something happening between us that is so miraculous and beyond the conceptual mind that it is challenging to even write about. The mind keeps coming up with known concepts to describe what is occurring between us but this is something that is completely beyond all of them.

There’s a magnetic force that is drawing the Self to the Self whenever two or more of us come together to inquire into our experience. It’s a living field of interconnectedness between us that is voraciously seeking to know more about what is real and true. But it demands everything—an active autonomous choice to leave everything I think I already know alone while simultaneously putting my attention on the force itself and surrendering to It. This choice is not just an act of autonomy; it is literally an act of creation. In this autonomous choice to stand alone, free from all relationship, I am actually bringing wholeness into the world of form and interrelatedness as. . . . dare I say. . . . God’s creation.

Just writing this I am filled with such a deep and overwhelming sense of uncontainable love, care, urgency, responsibility and awe, it’s actually painful. I have never been more consciously aware of the relevance and importance of my life and choices than I am right now, and the magnitude of what’s possible when a collective of us—each autonomously willing to do this—come together.

— Hope

Dear Andrew,

Everything is opening up in the most profound and dramatic way. The goal is becoming more and more real as I become more and more aware that the goal is actually all in me. I have this sense that I am falling inside of myself into a love and depth and vastness that I only knew of before as an experience. But now I know this is the goal—it’s God and it’s me too, and it’s REAL, and it just wants to be expressed with a ferocity I have never known before.

— Ingrid

Dear Andrew,

I am so conscious. . . . my attention is anchored in reality…attached to no-thing and I am finding myself here rather than in the myriad objects I usually identify with. It is so thrilling to experience development of my own consciousnesses like this. I feel my entire being is being pulled into this process and the only sane thing to do is to surrender totally to IT with as much conscious awareness of what is actually happening as I can muster.

— Kelly

Dear Andrew,

I am finding that in the expression of autonomy in conscious engagement with others, my sense of myself as a woman fades to almost non-existence. I find this ultimately thrilling—it feels so FREE. That which usually feels so primary to who I am just goes away because I am focused on developing, and it's like a cork comes out of a bottle and everything is flowing faster and faster, because this sense of self is usually in the way, consuming so much of my energy and attention. And now, abandoning that, I feel like all the edges and parameters and restrictions and codes of behavior and inherent self-limitations that come from that deep sense of what a woman should be and how she should act are being ripped out, and it is a deep and surging Joy. We are liberating the Self, we are freeing the Soul from the identity of Woman, and the Authentic Self is in Glory with the opportunity to explore, to express, to create and discover LIFE through us now with our bodies, our hearts, our minds, together.

— Laura

Dear Andrew,

A passion has been released in us that is tearing my self and the world as we know it apart. It physically feels like I am surrendering to something that will leave nothing recognizable of me or the universe. This joy, which is inherent in the expression of our individual and united intention for liberation, has irrevocably changed our lives and the substance of our relationships. Our cells and the atoms that make up matter are now resonating with an energy from another dimension of the heart. I am drowning, succumbing, dying blindly into it, not knowing where or if I will ever find myself, or anyone else, again. It is so wild and uncontrollable and yet I know it is guided by the ultimate purpose for us all at this time. And so I trust, and die, and trust, and die, striving towards nothing so something can be born of a new order.

— Katherine

Dear Andrew.

When the women came together last night I think the roof nearly blew off a few times. The utter joy and positivity was at times overwhelming and almost unbearable. I was struck by the fact that the kind of autonomy we are beginning to discover has not been a structure that has existed in us as women. As we spoke I became increasingly conscious that what was occurring in my own experience was something I started off describing as “a force” that was bulldozing me over from the inside out, wanting nothing more than to obliterate me in its one-pointed intention to evolve and leap beyond everything I already know. Afterwards, I realised that that “force” is me, it’s my own intention—but it is so unlike any idea of autonomy whatsoever that I would never have recognised it as such. It is so free from the personal, so free from my individual personality, that it is almost perceived as Other. But it is not. It is all me. And the more women that gave voice to this intention the more I became aware that this very conscious and overwhelming force is arising not from without, but from deep, deep within.

— Koonu